Saturday, June 20, 2015

Tragedy-the Christian Epic Fail (Quick Thoughts on the Carolina Church Shooting)

If you're online or watching the national news, you've already been bombarded with the steady drumbeat of the church shooting in North Carolina. The official story says a young white male walked into a black church and at some point during the service opened fire on the congregation, killing 9 people-men and women.

Then the boy walked out. Not sure why the church had high tech surveillance cameras to catch an image of him leaving (hmmm) but word went out and people have been skwacking about this non-stop the past few days.

The "conspiracy theorist" in me is very suspicious of this event, which has been dubbed a hate crime without any evidence by the media and even President Obama-just based on the fact that it was a white male who shot black people. So many things don't add up and instead of critically thinking, people-as usual-are over-emotional and dumb. So I say "fine". If you want to fall for this psy-op, go ahead. This is a race-baiting issue to piggyback a sequence of race issues the media has been pushing, so, oh well. Continue on, sheeple.

My angle in this blog is on the religion aspect, since this took place in a "house of God" or a church.

Christians are looking real stupid right about now.

This happened IN God's house, on God's watch-right Christians?

Well, what the hell happened? (no pun intended).

I guess these Jesus-praising folks weren't "blessed and highly favored".

I suppose those that were brutally killed were not "under God's covering"?

What happened to "no weapon formed against me shall prosper?"

I'm not gloating about this. I wouldn't wish this to happen to anybody.

But that's not the point.

In times like this, the Christian pathology is really put to the test. I used to be one of these people, so I know firsthand the mentality. I've lived with the psychosis or better yet, the arrogance that this God of the bible loves Christians (or "saved" Christians) more than the rest of humanity. How arrogant to convince yourself you're "saved" and everyone else is going to hell!

If there is a God (the way Christianity dictates "Him" to be) God is an asshole. What kind of supreme being allows his worshippers to be gunned down by a complete stranger?

As usual with these kinds of tragic events, Christians are trying to cover their tracks with the typical comebacks, such as:

  • The shooter was sent by Satan.
  • The dead are in a better place
  • there's a reason for everything
  • God doesn't work that way (in response to being asked why God allowed this).
  • We forgive the shooter

Christians suck. seriously. Just admit you don't know. I remember being indoctrinated in the church to have to have the answers to "non-believers". We were taught that Christians should never be caught with their pants down. We can NEVER admit we're wrong or that we don't understand what or why certain things happen. 

The family of the deceased (also Christians) are proclaiming they forgive the shooter. This is stupid and arrogant on so many levels. The reason: this forgiveness for the most part is something people hide behind to appear like they're on this moral high ground. 

To hell with forgiveness. I'm pro-being bitter. 

And I'm tired of this having to hurry -up- and -forgive  philosophy Christianity pushes on everyone. New Age people and "good" folks do that, too. It's like you're a bad person if you don't forgive. If you don't forgive, you're stuck and can't move forward in life. Even worse, for Christians not forgiving is a sin and if you don't you won't get into the pearly gates of heaven. 

Well, I'll tell you one thing: if God is in this heaven, and he allowed this and he couldn't stop Satan from breaking in and destroying, I'm better off somewhere else. 

Thursday, June 11, 2015

Can Christians Be Logical?

The question says it all. Can someone be a Christian and a logical person at the same time?

I've seen some professed Christians be experts in their field, professional advisors, business owners, innovators, politicians, scientists, entertainers and entrepreneurs.

These people have impressed me with their accomplishments and even things they say.

But I can't help it. My eyes see through the matrix. I'm the one who sees the black cat twice- the glitch in the seemingly perfect reality.

When I interact or just observe these people, no matter how 'normal' they seem, something happens to give them up.

It could be something they say (or don't say) that lets the cat out of the bag.

See, beliefs are different than facts. Don't be fooled-the entire baseline of Christianity is getting others to subscribe to the Christian belief, i.e. to become "saved". Even if you're an attorney (or attourney if in Europe) and your law partner is a Christian, you may conduct business like everyone does, but lurking underneath the surface is their desire for you to become a member of their church, or be "saved" in whatever way their particular doctrine says that means.

As a former Christian, I reflect on having to live a split existence between sanity and fantasy.

Get mad if you want, but most Christian beliefs are fantasy.

A man getting swallowed by a fish and living there for 3 days is a fantasy.

A man who is the son of God who is born of a virgin who was knocked up by the Holy Spirit is fantasy.

And a man dying and rising from the dead and then ascending to heaven is fantasy.

....But you have people who are doctors, lawyers, scientists, astronauts, accountants and engineers who believe this.

People in left-brain logical fields that deal with facts, logic and numbers everyday have to suspend that part of themselves when talking about religion.

Because if they applied their logic to their beliefs, well, that would be a problem, wouldn't it?

Is it logical to believe that the bible is a literal book? Is is logical to have to belong to a church to be "saved"? Is it logical to give money to God by giving to a man who calls himself your pastor?

So to me, these people are a little off. The elevator doesn't go all the way up to the penthouse. They may have genius IQs but not much street smarts. They lack practical reason and logic. And that is the 'glitch' I see in the matrix.

They profess God has everything to do with their success. God has blessed them. I think they have cognitive dissonance. In fact, I think most Christians have some kind of dissociative disorder. It comes with the territory.

Secretly, these successful Christians want to convert you. And what's so insane is that even if you are equally as successful (or more successful) than them, or if you're happy, healthy and a deeply spiritual person with integrity and values living your life well on your own terms, they still yearn for you to be 'saved'. Because, they think, (and I know, because I used to think this about people doing better than I was, by the way), that your life is incomplete without a 'relationship with the Lord'.

Whatever that means.

So, can Christians be logical?

You tell me. The writing's on the wall.

Saturday, March 14, 2015

Prosperity Pimps...and their hoes

Why is it that preachers can offer us intangibles by asking us for tangibles?

How do we sit there in the congregation, smiling, "Amen-ing" and cheering the "Man or Woman of God" on as they brag about their mansions, their private jet, their Armani suits, their fancy car....stuff our money gave them-not God?

What is it in us that makes us blind to reality? Why do we prefer to see someone else prosper other than us and sacrifice our own limited resources to make sure it happens?

We allow these people like Creflo Dollar to talk crap to us about not giving enough (money) and that our poverty is due to our lack of faith. Why aren't we asking him where's his money?

If God's blessings are upon him or her, if he (or she) is God's chosen one to lead the rest of us as God's ambassadors, why hasn't God blessed them with the abundance they need or desire?

If these "anointed ones" who tell us that heaven doesn't have a light bill, how do we tolerate them turning right around asking us for money for their light bill?

If they tell us about the "law of attraction" and how to manifest the life we desire, why do they need our money?

If we need money, why can't we go to our church (that we give our money to) for help when we need it?

Just askin'.

These pastor pimps petition their congregations for funding for things like private planes in the name of:

-When you give, you are giving to God, not to men (stupid)

-Planting a seed. God will bless you if you give to me money you ain't got (really stupid)

When do we stop the games?

They say "don't hate the player, hate the game" but I say, "don't hate the player OR the game, hate the people sitting on the sidelines cheering".

My life turned around when I started tithing to myself 10 percent instead of to the church. Tithing is an investment. I realized giving the church my money is not an investment. It was guilt, manipulation-and desperation from dire life circumstances. Pastors and churches just want your resources-your time, your money, your energy-to fund their huge church mortgages and every other maintenance expense... without giving anything in return.

And they tell you that to expect something in return is sinful.

What a game. Damn those cheerleaders.

Sunday, February 22, 2015

Is there such a thing as "right" and "wrong" or is moralism just a big lie used to control us?

                                 Good versus Evil? Is there such a thing or is it mere religious fantasy?

One of the worst inner conflicts I've ever wrestled with has been this idea of what's "good" and what's "bad".
In the church, you're brainwashed with this concept of morality, which is pre-packaged for you. Your specific religion and sect of that religion determines what falls under "good" and "bad".

Do I think moralism is "wrong"? No. After years of reflection I have come to view moralism as a necessary component to the human experience-particularly for humans living among one another. Today we call this "civilization". 

Murdering another human being is generally immoral, right? Unless it's self defense as I believe and the court system believes.  Murder, rape and incest are the easy distinctions, but what about things like sex before (or outside) of marriage? What about road rage? What about getting angry and losing your cool with the obnoxious cashier at the store?

Or...the M word. Masturbation?

Masturbation is a great, great illustration of this topic. In the church, masturbation was considered a grievous sin. I shared in one of my older blogs on this site about the disturbing moment during a Wednesday church service (we called these services "Midweek") when my female evangelist told our singles group that when we masturbate, what we're really doing is masturbating Jesus. 

I NEVER forgot that moment. Even until this day. You should have seen the horrified looks on each girl's face as we sat in that circle. It was one of the most perverted things I ever heard. The idea of jerking off Jesus because my body was the "temple of the holy spirit" where he dwells was pretty yucky.

Now, as I write this, I find it quite comical. It was devastating then because I didn't know any better. The church told me Jesus was a real human being who walked the earth and stuff...and believing that paradigm made all the difference. 

If you're reading this, you might be a bit thrown off by my last statement about Jesus. But if you continue on your own spiritual path, I'm confident you will come to your own conclusions about the literal interpretation of the Bible imposed on you and me by religious forces. 

Back to the topic: why is masturbation a sin in the eyes of God? And according to who? How has such a personal act be labeled as morally wrong? 

Look, I'm not pro or anti-masturbation. Just using it since it's a great, real, honest example that I can relate to. Just wanted to say that...

But what makes something "good" or "bad"? 

A very, very good question I started asking myself and I recommend you ask yourself, too.

Because here's the thing: when someone else determines what is good or bad, they own your mind, your emotions and maybe even your soul. When religious powers can tell you what's right or wrong, they can then determine your fate should you break their "commandments".

What I started doing what taking time to figure out what my own personal definition of right and wrong were. This was indeed a challenge when all my life religion has done this for me. But although I haven't made it to the Emerald City just yet, I have freed myself from a lot of invisible chains that were keeping me on a rollercoaster ride of guilt, shame and regret. 

In other words, if  I do something, what makes it "wrong" is that it harms me (or someone else) in some way. My actions, thoughts, words or beliefs have lead me to results that are not in my best interest-or in the best interest if someone else this directly affects.

I feel that context is everything. For example, masturbation to me is wrong if it becomes detrimental in some form or fashion-like if it becomes an addiction. I suspect self-stimulation can ruin your sex life with other people, too. 

The most important thing here is that we all must form our own belief systems about things. Some stuff like child molestation I keep, other crap like not going to church every week I throw out. And I feel so much freer and strong and confident now that I define my own morals and standards.

Many people are petrified of this. They think the world would be sheer chaos if people are left up their own beliefs. Maybe, maybe not. Just figure it out for yourself. That's one of the best ways to develop self-love and self esteem is to redefine yourself on your terms. And religion has worked overtime to strip us of self-love and self-confidence from Day One of our lives. Otherwise, the powers that be couldn't control us.

Until next time.

Tuesday, June 24, 2014


I know it's been a while, but I wanted to share a cool milestone for myself and for anyone listening.

Recently, on May 29, I was a guest on an internet radio show sharing about Spiritual Abuse-my own journey and recovery.

Here is the link:

Sunday, December 8, 2013

10 Reasons You Should Never Have a Religion-reason #7 (con't from previous blog post series)

Taken from Steve Pavlina's self-empowerment blog,

For all us religion refugees... enjoy.

Reason #7:  Idiocy or hypocrisy – pick one.

When you subscribe to an established religion, you have only two options. You can become an idiot, or you can become a hypocrite. If you’ve already chosen the former, I’ll explain why, and I’ll use small words so that you’re sure to understand.

First, there’s the idiocy route. You can willingly swallow all of the contrived, man-made drivel that’s fed to you. Accept that the earth is only 10,000 years old. Believe stories about dead bodies coming back to life. Learn about various deities and such. Put your trust in someone who thinks they know what they’re talking about. Eat your dogma. Good boy!

Congratulations! You’re a moron believer. You’ll be saved, enlightened, and greeted with tremendous fanfare when you die… unless of course all the stuff you were taught turns out not to be true. Nah… if the guy in the robe says it’s true, it must be true. Ya gotta have faith, right?

Next, we have the hypocrisy option. In this case your neocortex is strong enough to identify various bits of utter nonsense in the religious teachings that others are trying to ram down your throat. You have a working B.S. detector, but it’s slightly damaged. You’re smart enough to realize that earth is probably a lot older than 10,000 years and that pre-marital (or non-marital) sex is a lot of fun, but some B.S. still gets through. You don’t swallow all the bull, but you still identify yourself as a follower of a particular religion, most likely because you were raised in it and never actually chose it to begin with.

To you it’s just a casual pursuit. You’re certainly not a die-hard fundamentalist, but you figure that if you drink the wine and chew the wafer now and then, it’s good enough to get you a free ride into a half-decent afterlife. You belong to the pro-God club. Surely there’s safety in numbers. Two people can’t be wrong… although 4-1/2 billion supposedly can.

In this case you become an apologist for your own religion. You don’t want to be identified with the extreme fanatics, nor do you want to be associated with the non-believers. You figure you can straddle both sides. On earth you’ll basically live as a non-practitioner (or a very sloppy and inconsistent practitioner), but when you eventually die, you’ve still got the membership card to show God.

Do you realize how deluded you are?

Perhaps if you have to throw out so much of the nonsense to make your chosen belief system palatable, you shouldn’t be drinking the Kool Aid in the first place. Free yourself from the mental baggage, stop looking to others for permission to live, and start thinking on your own. If your God exists, he’s smart enough to see through your fake ID.

From time to time, some of my readers take a stab at converting me to their religion. Most of them come across as total loons, but I can at least respect their consistency. I’ve no idea why they bother to read my site (which is about raising, not lowering, consciousness). Perhaps some of them are getting ready to convert from fundamentalism to common sense.

You’d think I’d be quite a prize for any serious religion. With 2.4 million monthly readers, that’s a lot of people I could potentially enslave convert, not to mention how much I could fill the Church coffers by soliciting indulgences donations on their behalf. Henceforth I expect a much better conversion effort. If you won’t do it for the money, then do it for the souls. You can’t let so many of us go to hell without trying in earnest to save us, can you? ;)

Just keep those conversion emails below 10,000 words if possible, with no more than 9,000 of them quoted from your favorite great book.